I went through some old pictures last night while I was waiting for Joey to get home from school. After my good, obligatory sob-fest looking back over pictures of Puss and Papa and my carefree days in college, I did find two pictures that made me smile. Both are at Planet Hollywood in Myrtle Beach, SC, and I think they were taken in September of 2000, while I was a sophomore in college. The first is of me with Crow from MST3K, which remains to be one of my favorite shows of all time; it remains to be the show that Joey and I watch most frequently (my mom had the foresight to tape them from the Sci Fi Channel when it aired on Saturday mornings).
The second is of me with the Terminator from T2, which is still my favorite movie. I was so excited to be next to that figure of him that was used for the special effects of the film.I didn't have as much trouble being in the present moment back then....I guess it was because I didn't have as much responsibility, as much riding on my ability to handle things and to take care of everyone. I was the one being taken care of by those around me. I know that was probably a selfish place to be, honestly (but natural for someone who is still dependent on his or her parents), but there has to be some way to be able to get there now. I've been feeling overwhelmed lately with everything.
So, I would really like to be able to learn to be in the present moment and not to worry so much about yesterday or tomorrow. Advice is welcome, even if anonymous.